I have been listening to Monsters of Folk lately. I don’t like all the songs mostly cause I have weird thoughts about M. Ward and My Morning Jacket but some of it is pretty great. Listening to Conor always brings me back to his solo album which I love. I keep coming back to Eagle on a Pole when I listen to this album. It’s such a beautiful song and I love the feeling of this part…

Thought the kettle was a train
Thought that Monday was a door frame
I tried so hard to finally settle down
Heard the fire pop and snap
Like a tack piano rag
I never could get used to happy sounds

But I hope the world’s exposed
A cruel and elaborate hoax
That convinces me to walk without a cane
But what can you do
What can you do
I always heard that what is done is done
El Cielo es azul
Just don’t go telling everyone

1 more final tonight and I took off tomorrow. I plan on going to Blueberry Hill and drinking before noon.

It’s Saturday night and I am studying MIS, listening to Thievery Corporation, doing laundry and wishing I was out having wine somewhere. I have 3 finals this week. DB2 procedural language on Monday, Algebra on Wednesday and MIS on Thursday. Needless to say, I am a little stressed at the moment. Feelings of inadequacy are dancing in my head.

The condo on the corner across the street has their windows open and lights on. I am watching them have what looks like a romantic evening complete with wine and candles. I wonder if they can see me watching. I wonder if they are looking back at me sometimes.

Maybe I will reward myself with DJ Hero and wine if I study for another 2 hours.

Just to add some humor, here is a quote from last night. ”I tried to pee in the Dyson blade dryer. It wasn’t very comfortable.”

I have been thinking about how much I want things to change lately. Everyone seems to be feeling it too. Maybe its the weather. Nathan and I sent texts about missing New Orleans to each other a few nights ago. Everything just feels so stagnant.

I realized I do better when I live with someone. I clean, cook and do laundry more often. I tend to work harder at being a better me when someone is around to see it. I like my freedom too though. So to split the difference, I have decided to get a kitten. I am going to be a foster mommy to a kitten and see how it goes. Knowing me, even if it is bad I will still keep him because I adore kittens and cats.

If I am going to have a kitten, I am going to name it something awesome but not Awesome. Right now I am deciding between Mushaboom and Smooshers. I like both. Any suggestions?

Lastly, I have DJ Hero now and let me just say that game is fun. I play it just about every night before I go to bed. I am not very good at it but I have fun dancing and remembering the good days when I went to raves at least once a month.

…Hey now, you can’t keep saying endlessly…